So a lot of you know that Nikki and I are the two musketeers. I call her my mini BFF. I guess you could say that I have depended on her in the last months. A lot. Probably too much. This dependence is in no way fair to her and I knew that I would have to back off and let her spread her wings a little but I am desperately sad to report that this infernal wing spreading happened today.
Yesterday, the little girl across the road asked Nikki to come over and play. I have only met the Mom in passing but they’ve lived there for 3 years and seem like a nice couple, so I said okay. She was having so much fun that when I arrived to bring her home for dinner, she melted down and was ridiculously snotty for the rest of the evening.
This morning, I asked her if she wanted to go to Starbucks after school (a weekly ritual for us and a peace offering after the bed time gong show the night before) and she said: “No, I want to go play at Sarah’s house. That’s more fun.”
Now, I know she didn’t mean anything by it but my heart broke a little. I knew the day would come when she would want to do more and more without me and I know that’s natural and normal and as it should be. I just didn’t think it would be today.